monocromatic meets tribal = mixed emotions

Friday, August 10, 2012

I bought this dress a few months ago, I wore it once and then it got lost in my closet. Have you ever had that happen? I complain that I can't find anything to wear, yet I loose track of stuff because I have too many clothes.. such lunacy!

But, I found it ;) I was a little worried when I bought this dress for a couple reasons, A) I didn't know how much longer the tribal print was going to be around and B) it's a very unforgiving fabric, and shows all my curves (the bigger problem).

I know I might get some flack for this, but I write an honest blog and these are my honest thoughts. I have been in such a self loathing state for so long. My body image is so jacked up, If I was 100 pounds I don't even know if I'd be happy. It's so sad how our society views body image and then here I am wrapped up in the fashion industry with paper thin women.

I get plenty of compliments and people always think I'm crazy when I say I want to loose wight, but truth is, I don't care how much positive reinforcement I get, if I hate my body, that's all I hear.

I quit working out a few months ago, because honestly I wasn't seeing the results I wanted fast enough, then I got out of routine. I am working on appreciating my uniqueness but I want to be healthy inside and out. I'm working on it, but isn't it hard? How are we going to teach our little girls to love themselves if we don't? What's the long term solution? If you figure out the secret, please let me know ;)  (P.S. I'm really not that depressed about the situation, but I guess I needed to vent)..

Getting back to my outfit and what spurred this flood of emotion... I like this dress, but I do feel self conscious in it sometimes :/ It is really comfortable and I get a ton of compliments when I wear it. I think I'm the only one who hates my body.... is that what they mean when they say "sounds like a personal problem?" This look cost next to nothing, only $30!! Thank you once again Goodwill!!

brand: Pretty Good
purchase price: $3.99
purchased from: The Goodwill
suggested retail: unknown

brand: Forever 21
purchase price: $4.80
purchased from: Forever 21
suggested retail: $4.80

brand: unknown
purchase price: $2.99
purchased from: The Goodwill
suggested retail: unknown
brand: unknown
purchase price: $8.00
purchased from: Rapsody
suggested retail: $8.00
brand: Atmosphere
purchase price: $9.99
purchased from: The Goodwill
suggested retail: Unknown (made in Dublin)

Apparently I have a habit of mixing these earrings & shoes together...

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